stress.

Stress.

Stressing out seems to be a very common occurrence nowadays. Geez, I feel like I stress out a lot, which isn't good or healthy. Stressing out is a good way to lose sleep, get headaches, change your appetite and moods, and just make yourself a less happy person. College stresses me out. Not just because of the classes, but because of money. I hate not having a job. It kind of bums me out, in all honesty. I feel like I would be so much more beneficial to myself if I got one. However, I'm applying to be an RA (resident assistant) and I'm praying soooo hard that I get hired. Being an RA would be such a blessing for me and I would be so thankful and appreciative to everybody who helped pick me for the job. If I don't get it, I'll know that it's not the right time for me. God has a plan, and if He doesn't want me to be an RA yet, then I won't be. But I'm praying that now's the right time. I feel like I would be a great RA and role model for the girls in my hallway. I've never wanted something more than this.

Okay, sorry for changing the subject. Back to where I started: STRESS. Quizzes, exams, projects, speeches, applications, extra credit; the list goes on and on. When does it end? Well, never. There are always going to be different things and situations that stress you out. But it's your job to find out the best way to stop stressing and know that everything's going to work out and be fine. I found out that the best way for me to not stress is turning all of my lights off, playing my piano station on Pandora, and BREATHING. Breathing is probably one of the best ways to lose your stress. It helps you calm down, gives you time to think, and just cancels out the high tendency to hyperventilate or freak out, which I still sometimes do. Praying and talking to God, or reading my Bible helps me a lot too. Some people handle stress in a different way, but I found those examples to be the most beneficial to me. Sometimes, driving around alone in my car helps too. What makes it worse is when I'm surrounded by people who aren't stressing out, especially when I know that I have something important to do, but I just can't leave. When I'm stressed out, I normally stay away from people. Unless you're special, but I can only think of one other person I'd be with if I was stressing out. Being alone, in a quiet/dark place, and listening to piano music while I breathe is just the best dose of medicine I can take for releasing my stress. Oh, and venting. Don't tell me you've never just wanted to vent to somebody. That helps out a ton too! I've vented about so many things; it works. I promise. Anyways, I'm supposed to be studying right now. I'm taking a break, but now I should probably get back to it. That's all for now. :)

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Life changes.

Growing up. Moving away. Going to college. Leaving your family and friends. Leaving the norm of your usual life and learning to live and be responsible for your own self now. How crazy is that? I mean, I feel like just yesterday I was starting my freshman year of high school and now I'm in my freshman year of college. Time flies by and it's never going to stop, no matter how bad you might want it too. I'm now living away from my parents and learning how to do everything on my own. Growing up isn't fun, but it's a way of life.

I'm not saying that I wish I was still a little kid, trust me, I'm not saying that at all. There are times, however, when I do reminisce to my childhood and want to go back and relive some memories. Completely impossible. I can only look ahead and be eager about my future, which I might add, looks extremely bright and exciting. Even though I'm not 100% sure of what I'd like to do yet, I still know that God is going to push me in the right direction. I have full faith in Him and His plan for me. 

When it comes to faith, I'm very strong in mine. (sorry, I got off subject.) But, God is the Almighty Lord and He is my everything. Without Him, I wouldn't be the person that I am today. I've learned so much about Him in these past few months than I have in my whole life. The people that I've met here have given me the push to make myself a better person and I've been inspired by so many of them. I'm so thankful that I chose to attend MSU and that I've met the amazing people that I have. I couldn't have asked for a better situation.